Confessions

I have had difficulty sleeping since I was a kid.  I would go to bed, toss and turn and not be able to fall asleep.

I would be tired but unable to sleep.  My mind would race, and I would suddenly think of something and could not get it out of my mind. 

I would often change position and sleep at the foot of the bed and sometimes that would help and I could fall asleep.

Now when I toss and turn, I'll go out into the living room and lie down on the couch.  It is very cramped and I cant move much and sometimes that helps.  The A/C also blows colder out in the living room and the cool breeze from the A/C and cool leather of the couch and being unable to toss and turn will often do the trick.

Well the other night...nothing worked...nothing...got up took a Benedryl as it has sedative effect.  Nope...noting..so I go back to bed.  She has spent over an hour playing with my dick before bed and kept me close to cumming. 

I touched myself through the think fabric of my underwear, and said to myself "Fuck it Ill jerk off, cum and then go to sleep." Of course you ladies know when we men cum we often fall asleep.

So I did exactly that.  Got myself off.  Actually came, had an orgasm.  I rarely jerk off to a full orgasm but do so hoping I could go to sleep.  Nope.....no way...just me and my dick in my hand like this....

HOLIDAY FIREWORKS!!!!

By Mrs. B Denied

4th Of July Rocket

Received a text from my Alpha Male the day before July 4th.  He would be in town the day after July 4th...Yes, I am available between 4-5.  SURE! (always! 😗   I always look forward to his cumming to town.  hee hee. 😊

Here it is, July 5th and we're are waiting. Things usually do get changed, time frame wise.  And sure enough, would 2 be ok?   Yes,  I was excited for 4, now even more so that he would be fucking me sooner. 😼

1 o'clock came & went...hubby still hanging around.  With Alpha, you never know when he will   show up...a surprsie "attack" sooner than thought.    I hustled hubby out on errands since the 2 may never cross paths,  and told him I would let him know when he showed up. 2 o'clock  came & went..got a new text..he was 30 mins out now.   A  few more minutes..another text...can I Face Time my pussy to him...where on earth is he that he can get a FACE TIME?  HE WAS DRIVING!  I did it..his phone propped up on console...I showed him my wet pussy  & he whipped his dick out of his loose shorts to show me his hard on all ready for me.  That was a quick enticement to get us more in the mood....

When he walked in, I was lounging on the couch, one leg bent up, the other leg off the couch, splaying my wet pussy...just for him.

  He was pleased what a whore I was acting.  he wasted no time taking off shorts & shirt and coming over with that huge cock at my face.  "Suck my cock you whore"   I did the tip but wanted to be fucked....I took hold of the big cock...and the phone rang.  I said I would not answer..he looked at the phone & said, "It's your husband"  Well. I am not going to answer. "You are not going to answer?  WHAT IF HE COMES HOME? WHAT IF HE WALKS IN? Does he know I am here?  No, I said, he does not know you are here. My secret, and NO, he will NOT be walking in.   He liked the thought of husband not knowing...so he continued his business.  😈

 He Commands,  "Spread those legs, WHORE!"  I did, he put his fingers in me and wanted me to rub my clit until I came.  He could feel the convulsion inside, took out his fingers and shoved that huge cock in me.   He was thrusting and my pussy was dripping wet...I said, you made me squirt with your cock!  Yes, he could feel it dripping on him.  Then he went deep...several thrusts..ooo...it is hitting bottom..I will feel you tomorrow..he thrust a few more times and shot a big load inside me.

It may have seemed fast & furious...but since I had known about it for 2 days...the excitement had built up and I was more than ready to take all he had to give.

He got up, cleaned up, got dressed thanked me for fuck  & run, he needed that...hugged me and asked for the usual sparkling water we always have.. He just makes himself at home here.  Before he left, he went into the bathroom my husband always uses and peed, like he was marking his territory. 

Nice big bang for 4th of July!    My pussy feels like a rocket went off inside!!!

Follow up to questions

How many men has your wife been with since you began?

I am not exactly sure as it is difficult to remember each person by name or encounter but it is about 25 give or take.  Not every one has involved  intercourse, some were handjobs and blowjobs only but I think that counts

Are you regularly denied? (maybe obvious, but interested in more details - chastity, post cuckolding, tease and denial, things like that)

So, our general pattern is that she will play with my cock just about every day.  She will get me erect, stop for a bit, it goes down and then she resumes. This can go on for hours.  She has kept me hard for well over an hour.She enjoys playing with my balls as well. I get very close to cumming most times but rarely does she take me over the edge.Sometimes she will just say that its strictly a play night and I will not be coming. She will tell me this before she starts and sometimes she says noting and takes me over the edge and sometimes she says nothing and still does not let me ejaculate.  I often have orgasms with no cum either coming out as as some might say "ruined."

How it has affected your relationship and perhaps how that has evolved over the years

We are more in love now than the day we were married. We get closer each and every day.  She is the true love of my life and I am 99.99.99% certain she feels the exact same way.  I never say 100% because it could be more and there is always more closeness we can attain.

How does she choose partners:

I have placed adds on Craigst list and back when there were chat rooms I would find some potential guys there.  I will often do a screening and if they seem interesting I give them my blessing to contact her, after I discuss them with her.  It is up to her then to decide if it goes further. If we are at a party, she may on rare occasions choose someone to ploay with.  If she does that he is having a very lucky night.

Do you ever watch, participate, etc.

Yes I have done both but very rarely.  I think we have had maybe three threesomes, a couple of foursomes and I have watched her at least three or four times where I did not participate other than to watch.  This rarely happens as she likes to be alone with the guy and Im fine with that.  It is very erotic to be in another room and hear what is going on without watching, and rarely does that ever happen.  Her main guy who she has been fucking for about 15 years is someone I have never once met.  

How often does she have sex with other men, vs you--Both the last were previously answered.

Any pointers?

Weened last

So last weekend we drove about three hours to attend a party.  This is a group that meets about once a week or so in different locations and the attendees engage in a variety of sexual activity.

We have attended numerous times before, and the parties can be very high energy or they can be really boring.

This one was quite well attended.  Unfortunately, there were no men that really got my wife's motor running.  She is very picky.  She also started to not feel well and we wound up leaving a bit early.

But this was one of the first times I actually saw he show an interest in really watching the goings on.

I was busy doing something and lost sight of her for a few minutes and when I found her again she was watching a guy fuck a woman who had traveled from a far off state with her husband and another couple.  The woman was quite hot, good body and probably in her very late 40's or early 50's but as I said, very hot.  She had a beautiful shaved pussy I wanted to bury my face into but before I could, it was occupied with a cock belonging to the guy who was fucking her.

While my wife watched this she was playing with my own cock and I was getting quite turned on watching the festivities.  Eventually we drifted into another room where a rather plump woman was being attended to on a massage table.  The attendants were two women and about four men.  When this woman came from all the touching, she was so loud I thought she would be heard five floors up.

She had mentioned that she had been in a long term relationship and described that relationship as having been a desert of sexual activity.  Well I can safely say the drought in the desert ended last Saturday night!

After a while everyone was taking a brake and the female friend of the woman who was getting laid came and sat by me.  Eventually, she got up, touched my leg and wandered into another room.  I was not sure if that was a sign to follow her but I waited a few moments and did so.  She did not seem to pay much attention to the fact that I did so I went back out to where the wife was sitting.

A few minutes later she came back out, sat next to me again and we chatted about the party etc.  She was very pretty, had a nice figure and seemed very sensual.  I was really not in much of a mood to play, (I get shy in public settings and prefer to watch the wife).  Eventually she got up and there was a very young guy who she took into a room and they began to use an unoccupied bed.  By this time the wife was not feeling well at all, and we got dressed and left. 

This just goes to show you that not every encounter is a mind altering experience and when one embarks on this journey, there will be times when the ride is a bit bumpy.  Overall though how many of you get to be in a room of naked people having sex, cumming and enjoying the scenery!

Update-questions

There will be an update to questions coming.  some of the questions I answered were for some strange reason not published.  I dont know why but it seems blogspot has a mind of its own at times.

I am also going to write a bit about our weekend adventure or lack of same.....stay tuned

Answering some questions

Do you ever watch, participate, etc.
 Yes to both but its rarely and I have not "participated in a very long time.  If I am present, I would prefer to watch or be in another room, hearing but not seeing.  I love watching but I do not want her to be inhibited and not watching, being behind a closed door is very fucking erotic.....

How often does she have sex with other men, vs you-
There is no set pattern.  She has fucked one guy three times in a week, and she has been absent another cock for months.  It depends on how often one of her two steady guys get to town.  Last year I think the first guy came to town a dozen or so time.  We have some type of sexual activity daily but if you are referring to penetration, maybe once every couple of weeks to once a month or so.  You have to understand, I rarely ejaculate whether I fuck her or not......

Any pointers?  
For anyone interested and afraid to talk to their spouse a good way to start the conversation is by mentioning an article you read or a segment you saw on a documentary. Dont push, just listen for the reaction.  A reaction such as, "that's horrible who would let their wife do that!" is a pretty good indication she aint going there.  An oh, that is different opens up a possible, honey If I were ok with it would you be.  Most times the answer will be no because she does not believe it.  But it can be used as an opener.  We talked about it for about ten years before ti happened.  I am not usually patient but this was a rare exception and I knew eventually it would happen.  One might even say, "Hey if I were in an accident and was paralized would you have sex with an

UPdate on latest

Sorry for not posting for a while but things have been slow.  Last Sunday (today being June 1 and last Sunday being 5//27/she got a call from her main guy.  We call him the main guy because he is the first one she met and the one who stops by most frequently..

In any event he told her he was coming over around 9:30.  She told him I was due home on from a trip about midnight, so as fate would have it, he stopped by a bit earlier.

Of course I was not there for the festivities.....I never am, especially with this particular guy.

So from what  I hear it was like a drive by fuckem, fest.. He like Julius Caesar, came, saw and conquered...meaning, he got here, took her onto the couch, had her suck his according to her, ENORMOUS COCK."  and then hauled her into the bedroom where he properly fucked her "slut style" meaning he gave her tight pussy a very hard and good pounding.

When I got home she had his scent all over her.  I could smell him, and I could smell cum.  We sat on the couch, chatted about our day and I noted that her red lacy panties were soaked, through and through.  I found this out not by looking but by putting my hand between her legs, and finding the evidence that he had left behind.  She giggled something about the backwash

I am sorry I have no photo to post with this posting but apparently, the fucking was fast, furious and satisfying for her and there was no time for photography. 

I did give her pussy a good night kiss and no I did not get to fuck her and did not until well into this week. 

mr bdenied